tiring

it's super crazy! tahun depan dah nak SPM, tak boleh main-main. SPM sangat penting. cikgu tusyen cakap "result PMR korang sebelah mate pun orang tak pandang bile dah nak SPM nanti. SPM adalah penentuan segala galanye". penentuan untuk ke university. gila! i'm not ready. terase baru semalam masuk sekolah menengah, baru semalam dapat result PMR. sekarang dah nak SPM pulak, hanya tinggal setahun di bangku persekolahan. lepas ni tak dah tak rase la pakai unifom sekolah, baju putih dan kain biru. sekarang semua orang umurnye semakin bertambah, begitu juga aku. i think i have to change for good! no more fooling around, no more hanging out, no more talking nonsense, especially no more doing ridiculous stuff. you have to grow up girl! study more, help mum and more in studying. i don't want to think about the sissy things. focus on what you want and always pray to Allah. i'm determine to make my parents and myself proud. no more regrets. insyaAllah in Allah's will. lovie you mum dad! thanks for being my parents!:)

maze

four days had gone after the exam. i'm not really happy. for the past few days i was worried. i don't want to know the results. i'm not ready yet. the exam was really frustrating. what ever it is, i don't want to disappoint my parents. it's getting worst when i already got the result of one of the subject, and i told my mum about it. she was not mad, but i don't like the way i felt. i told that i got a C in history, although i'd work my guts out. IHHSM. damn! mum said " it's ok. it's not like you're in SPM. so, you should do better next time." she smiled and gave me a hug. you are the best mum!, i love you :)